OMG, IT'S A FRUITLOOP!!!!

[Freya]

Kat, you'll be alright if you aren't by now.. you have us to help you through things that we can do something. Wether it be to actually do something or just to listen. I'm sure we'll help as best as we can.

[LoTu]

Er' my dream, and i don't care about er' pass...I care about you! And were gonna make some happy memories for ya now!!!

[sweet_dreams]

As the new year draws around I kind of shudder and at the same time hope for a happier new year. My family...what little is here, is in pieces.

You see, I have a nephew who is 19. Since he was a baby we have always been so close. We like the same things, react the same (use to anyway)...just so much alike. I would let him come and use my computer anytime he wanted as long as he didn't change anything or get into my files.

Well this is despite the fact that in the past he has destroyed and stollen from me. I have these STAR WARS comics that I spent upward to $100.00 for from QVC; gold foil additions. He took them out and tore the front pages of all but two. At first he lied about it, then he admited it finely. Then he took from another collection (cards) that I had. He just took what he wanted and put what he didn't want from his collection in mine and called it a trade. He was 17 when he did that one.

He has done the same to his mom and grandmother. To the point he is quite out of control and my sister doesn't do anything about it. She whines and moans about it to mom then when mom says anything critical or such to try and help; she gets angry and blames mom for bad parenting or gets offended.

Non the less, I told David (my nephew) that he could use the computer anytime he wanted for whatever he wanted; only to not change ANYTHING. He gave me his word he would not.

So while I was away visiting friends, he broke that promise. He e-mailed me telling me abou this stuff he dd to my computer. I e-mailed him back telling him to change it back and to not make changes to my computer. He e-mailed me back telling me he didn't do anything big or change it 'you bitch' (as he put it).

That was it. I e-mailed him back and told him to 'stay off' my computer from now on. He re-turned that e-mail with a great deal of foulness and rudness.

Now here is the sad fact. Despite my mother, cousin reading that e-mail and telling my sister this and all he did; she blames me and takes her son's side. Despite that he called me a bitch, whore and every other word you could think of.

So now, the family is divided on this. I refuse to look or speak to my sister or her son. I can barely tolerate being around either of them.

For you see, he also went into my files and found some pictures I took for my ex-boyfriend. They were private and personal (nothing x-rated but private) and my sister said to my mother, "How dare she have stuff like that on the computer where my son could see it!"

News flash; IT IS MY COMPUTER! The pictures were not anything big or anything bad; but they were in my files (private files) and he went in and intentionaly opened them and looked. And that just ticked me off!!

So with the holidays comming up, the family is split. I dread them this year. I don't want to even be here. Around all this stress and depression.

Though at least now my mother is feeling better. She had been itching for about..five months in a row. Her skin was torn to pieces from it. It turned out she can't take asprin. Since she has quit, the rash and itching have stopped. Thank God for that...(sighs)

[sweet_dreams]

Life is like a roller coaster. Or better yet:

Life is like a box of chocolates. You never know what you are gonna get!

Sorry, watched FOREST GUMP the other night. I had forgotten what a funny and good movie it is. To bad they never got around to making the second book into a movie. But I guess they were afraid of making a dud.

Did a bit of traveling recently. Went down to Florida and got to stay on a navy base. It was a lot of fun.

Then I got to go to Atlanta and stay a while. Went camping and froze my ass off, lol. But I have to admit camping is fun. And the bon fire is kick. I could sit there and stare into the flames and just fall asleep watching the flicker and dance of the fire.

I have to admit I am in better spirits lately. Much better then I use to be. Though there are several things that tend to bring me down.

One is I want a job. I hate these dinky 13-20 hour a week jobs. I want at least a 32-40 an hour a week job. Less then 30 hours just doesn't feel right.

I am hoping to get another job like the one I use to work. I worked 10 hour shifts, 4 days a week. I liked the work. The only bad thing was dealing with the drunken customers. Some of them didn't know the meaning of the word NO, lol.

The last job I worked they promised me at the least 20 hours a week. They also said there was a good chance for premotion. BS! One woman working there had been there for 4 years. They worked her full time hours but kept her on as part time to save from having to giver her insurance. Jerks!

I am also wanting to save money to go see a certain guy. Though I am a little unsure if he still wants me too. I stil care a lot about him and would love to meet him and spend some time together. I just hope he feels the same.

[WitchBoy]

if its me you are talking about hun, yes i do, you know i do

[sweet_dreams]

Yes it is you silly. Who else would it be! YAY!!! I am glad you feel the same!